The Mirror and the Door

Question… Has there ever been a time in your life when you forgot who you were? Or where you were? Or who you belong to?

Hello my name is Mary/Pumpkin, I have challenges of depression, addiction and suicidal ideations that are called co-occurring disorders. I have been in recovery for several years and I must say I love the fact I can look at myself today in the mirror and say I LOVE ME.

See there was a time when looking in the mirror I would see misery and would ask myself  If I die would anyone miss me? Then there were  other times I would ask, do I have a purpose bigger than myself and  should I hold on a little while longer?

It was not until I found the door of hope, I would  ask myself  how do I not be afraid of the truth  that the mirror revealed. The truth why I wanted to run or escape to my  temporary happiness of depression and drugs even though I was on the road to death.

Then in my sober state after my many psychiatric hospital visits, it seemed the mirror would reveal the truth that my behavioral health disorders of depression and addiction were out of control. Then I saw a light and a door open and made me understand in order to win, I must  start facing the demons of the past to move forward.

See, the mirror can make you see the truth when you asked yourself the questions how to become free.

However the difference between the mirror and the door is only you can open the door and go through.

Only you can seek professional treatment to learn and understand the ROOT of your issues and open the door to hope and help and wisdom that recovery is a processhowever  it is possible.  Today I am free, no longer is hurt, pain and sadness my friends. Yes, I still have challenges but now when I look in the mirror… I keep saying over and over to myself  I love me, I love me, I love me and I am so grateful I walked through the doors to recovery.



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Need help with substance abuse or mental health issues? In the U.S., call 800-662-HELP (4357) for the SAMHSA National Helpline.

If you — or someone you know — need help, please call 1-800-273-8255 for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. If you are outside of the U.S., visit the International Association for Suicide Prevention  for a database of international resources.

It is time to create a behavioral health dialog